Tell me your favorite songs. Mine is Northern Downpour, it just hits me I am not sure why.

I really hate boys. When you are ready to except that you like one and tell them you wake up and find that their relationship status on Facebook has gone from single to in a relationship while you slept. Then your roommate has an asshole for her boyfriend and she doesn't see it like that; "he is funny." Well he isn't, no matter how far you look into it he isn't funny. Then the ones that like you, you have no interest in at all. They lie, cheat and steal your heart and it makes you feel like the lowest piece of scum. I wish one day the one that I have wanted for years now will come to his senses and decide that I am the right girl for him.

I think that I am too old for crushes but it keeps on happening.

Today has been a lot better than yesterday. Instead of waking up and finding out that the guy I like has a girlfriend--a new one--I found out that it is supposed to be 45 degrees here!!! It is like a miracle in Illinois to have weather like this in February/March.

Also I have a friend whose birthday is today,  by years she is 20 but by date she is only 5!!! I think that would be the coolest thing. Happy Birthday to whoever's birthday it is today!

Also today marks the 14 day period until Spring Break! That will be exciting!

As February is finishing, where I am from there are way too many things going on that makes it hard to believe that I came from that place.

Valentine's Day there was a school shooting at the university in town. Five innocent people died and the shooter killed himself; making a total of six people dead and many more injured. It was hard because no one thinks that is going to happen some where close to me or someplace that I know so well I could give tours on visit days. No one really thinks that something so huge could happen and affect them personally. Even though I didn't know any of the people that were killed or injured knowing the place makes you realize that things like this really do happen and they can affect everyone. But I do know someone that works with the Fire Department of a town near by and he was on the scene helping direct traffic and help get students out of the room.

Then to make things even more crazier Tuesday a teacher that I had in high school was arrested for sexual assault against a minor. The student in the stated that the assault took place during the years 1998 and 2002. It is hard for this person to even come out and tell someone these things let alone press charges against the person. But the thing surprising about the story is not the fact that the teacher did it but the fact that it took this long for someone to say something. I am not sure of what gender/sex that this student was and I would not be surprised what sex/gender the student is.

It just makes me feel like I am an awful person for being from this place. I was not ashamed of my town before these actions and events were publicized. I always thought of the town as in the middle of nowhere but we invented Barbed Wire, and we are the home town of Cindy Crawford. Those are great things to be proud of but these new things that have happened are over riding the great things about this place. I wish it could go back to the way that it was before all this. I want it to be the simple college town in the middle of corn fields.

But in my life if something was not perfect it is scrutinized. I am now comfortable enough to tell strangers what I know about myself or at least what I think I am like.

Here it goes.

FAVORITES:

1. Color: Pink, it is the color of all things girly and absolutely amazing.
2. Flower: Daisy, it is simple and beautiful.
3. Food: It is between Chocolate Chip Cookies or Nachos.
4. Movie: Juno, it is one of the smartest movie ever made.
5. TV show: Arrested Development it was hilarious.
6. Band: Right now it is We the Kings, last week it was Metro Station.
7. Song:  Foundations by Kate Nash
8. Actor: Michael Cera
9. Actress: Ellen Page or Natalie Portman
10. Book: Invisible Monsters by Chuck Palaniuk

Basic About Me's:

1. I was born October 23, 1988. I have not met someone with the same birthday as me. I think that it would be very cool to meet someone.
2. I am practically Atheist, I don't believe in any higher form of power, but I sometimes wish there was.
3. I was born and raised in DeKalb, Illinois. The same place that Cindy Crawford came from. We are the place that invented barbed wire. Home of Northern Illinois University, most recently in the news for the shooting.
4. I am enrolled at Bradley University. I am a Public Relations major but honestly I have no idea what I want to do with my life...except work some how with musicians.
5. I have one sister and my parents are still married.
6. My nickname that my sister gave me is SamiG.
7. I am a hopeless romantic.
8. I wish everyone could find at least one thing beautiful about everything. Whether it is a person or an item.
9. I wish everyone could be well read. It is one thing that is missing from this generation.
10. I cannot spell, it took me about an hour just to write this entire blog. Checking back and forth for spelling errors.
11. I am a pessimist only because if I look at things as failures then I won't be disappointed if I fail at that part or if it turns out great I will be excited.
12. I need to have better money and time management skills.
13. I don't drink nor do drugs. I find them disgusting and there are some personal reasons for this choice.

Then yesterday we had Taste Of Bradley which is all the restaurants around campus offering samples of their food. Again I had Pizza!!! and I also had ice cream which was wonderful. I had fun. Then we came back and chilled in my dorm room and went to our floor meeting which was okay but when you put 42 girls in nooked hall it got a little cramped. But we had to go over the basics of the Residence Hall and stuff. Was invited to a Frat Party but it sounded a little lame so we kept playing Apple to Apples...fun game.

Now I am up and trying to think of better ways to explain things and make this so much cooler than it really is. All I know is that this is going to be fun and nothing seems real yet.